Another entry written in the middle of the night :o)

Another middle of the night entry :o)
I've just been on RHP (dating site) and oh-my-gosh, you would not believe how many *married* guys are on there! It's unbelievable! And I think I've made it pretty clear on my profile that I'm not interested in married or otherwised attached people (by saying "Please do not even bother emailing me if you are married or attached" - can I get much clearer than that?!) and yet, they still message me! It actually makes me kinda sad ... If you're not happy, then leave/break up. Don't cheat! How much would that hurt? To realise your partner is on the internet, looking for meaningless sex? I can't believe how many people are just looking for "Friends with benefits" or "F**kbuddies". Hmm. The world is a weird, sad place these days!
So, anyway, the main point of this was ... Wait, I forgot :o) Nah, just kidding. The point was, you would not believe how hard it is to find someone who is single, who's looking for a little bit more than just sex. Ahh well, the search continues ... I have actually met (well, chatted to) one guy who seems really nice. A little older than me (26) and although slightly confused by my "no, im not going to meet you for sex" attitude, we had a great talk. Maybe it won't go anywhere, but you never know :o)
Found out before that the "people" who have been "buying" my iPod on ebay are part of some scam ... I started to get a bit suspicious when every address it had to be shipped to was in Nigeria (Kate - "Oh, hello ... The Nigerians on the internet" ... *LOL*) so I went to the actual website of Barclays Bank (in the UK), to ask if they had, in fact, been sending me emails to tell me to send the item before the money would be put into my bank account. And, what a shock, they hadn't been! I had a feeling the whole thing was a scam, so I've emailed ebay, to let them know. Whats been happening is the item has "sold", the so-called buyer has then emailed me to say they've put the money in the account, and Barclays will transfer it into my account, and then the "Bank" will email me, asking for the item to be sent, and a shipping number to be sent to them, and *then* they say they will transfer the money. Luckily, I'm not quite *that* stupid, and had so far refused to send the item without first seeing the money. So anyone who's on ebay, *BEWARE!* "Oh hello ... The Nigerians on the internet" !!!
Didn't do much today. I slept until 11. I've stopped taking the zoloft, so I'm really shaky/dizzy/tired at the moment. It's actually kind of funny ... I'll be sitting down, and the whole room will just start spinning! Or I'll be in the middle of doing something, and I'll lose my balance and the room will do the whirlies again! Hopefully this doesn't last too much longer. I stopped taking them because I don't want to be reliant on tablets to be "happy". I need to get back on my feet, and I don't want to do it whilst on the tablets, because what happens if I get back to a stage when I'm "ok" again, and the doctor decides to stop the zoloft. Where will I be then? I'd just like to get back to normal, on my own, I guess. Plus, I really don't feel that they've been doing much to help me at all.
Spent a bit of time on Amber's baby blanket today. Gee, I'm soooo glad it will be finished before she's born ... Oh wait a second, she was born 21 months ago ... Oops! I really hope to have it finished before her 2nd birthday. At the moment it's taking a long time, due to the whole dizzy/shaking thing, hopefully once this passes I can work a lot faster :o) I've decided that the new baby will not be getting a blanket, I know I did one for Jordyn, and Amber, but I think I might do something different for my new niece/nephew. The blankets take too long to do, and I just want to try something new. Problem is, I don't know what the *new* and different thing I want to do is :-P
It's currently 1:54 a.m. Earlier tonight, I went outside and the sky was just beautful. It was nighttime, but parts of the sky were sort of light ... I think we're expecting some rain. Anyway, I looked up to see an big angel shape, with three similiar, smaller shapes underneath. I don't know why, but I immediately thought of Matty, Mia, Jake, and Hannah, who were all taken to Heaven much to early. It was just amazing. Occasionally I see some *pink* in the sunset, and I think of Hannah, but I've never seen anything like tonight :o)
Plans for tomorrow ... Well, since I didn't do much today, I need to get back into the jobsearch thing tomorrow. I also need to ring Centrelink, since I got a letter from them today, and I kid you not, it was *ONE* line! Yep, seriously. So I need to find out what's going on there! I also need to ring Origin Energy and find out what's going on with my electricity bill. I also have to ring the counselling place. Probably should also go buy some food at some stage as well, since my fridge is empty ... Well, I have some cheese and pineapple juice in there :o) And that's it ... How sad is that! :-P
Anyway, it's now after 2 a.m. so I should probably think about heading to bed. Have a great night!