Tonight, I am tired.

I am tired of the constant, always-frigging-there back pain.

I am tired of the unending headaches.

I am tired of trying something new, getting my hopes up, only to realise that it's not working, nothing is working, why the hell isn't something working?

I am tired of taking painkillers to get through every single day.

I am tired of getting home from 4 hours at work, utterly exhausted, feeling like I've worked 9 hours.

I am tired of feeling old. I am 24.

I am tired of being tired, all the time. I'm always tired. Even after a full nights sleep, I'm still so tired.

I am tired of the nerve pain in my legs, arms, and neck.

Tonight, I am tired.

So, as of Tuesday, I'm unemployed.

I don't know what I'm going to do.

Hinky.

Tonight I'm feeling a little ... Blah. Funky. Quiet. Or, as Abs from NCIS would say ... "Hinky". (Just not quite right)

I started my new job on Thursday. I worked 12 - 4. Friday I did 11 - 3, and today was 10 - 2. It's not flat out busy, mostly it's just constant. (By the way - the gelato? Frickin amazing. I tried the passionfruit one today, and it was so nice. The chocolate one is also delicious.) I really like the job, it's lots of fun, and Heather (the manager) and Casey (workmate) are both really nice. I'm getting the hang of it fairly quickly, which is good.

Tomorrow I'm not starting until 12, so I'll get a bit of a sleep in. I think tomorrow I'm only doing three hours.

I don't know. Collingwood won today, so you'd think I'd be happy, right? Instead I'm just kinda quiet ...
Ahh well. Maybe I'll write more later. Peace, and I'm out.

Slightly tired?

I think I may be a little *too* tired.

Why?

Because, when I got home from work at 5, I tried and tried to light my heater.

It would not start. I walked away, left it for a few minutes. I came back and tried again. Nope, still doesn't want to start. This went on until 5:45.

Still no go.

So, what do I do? I start crying.

Yep, crying ... Because my stupid heater won't start!

Then what do I do?

I kick the friggin thing. Hard!

Not once, but twice.

Then I tried to light it again.

First go ... It started.

Huh.

I think I'll be in bed early tonight ...


Edit - 10:55 p.m:
I really intended on having an early night. The last 4 nights, I've averaged about 4 hours sleep a night. And I am so frickin tired. I was messaging "Dan" at 9, and I thought then that I'd be in bed by about 9:15. I just had to do my dishes first. Then, god knows why, but then I thought I'd clean my toilet. And my bathroom. And then have a bath. And then strip my bed/change the sheets and doona cover. And then I just had to do a load of washing. So now I have a wonderfully clean house, and I can barely keep my eyes open :o) Lets hope this means that I sleep well tonight.
Peace. I'm out.

My head hurts.


Headache/tired.


Possibly because I've been up since 4:30 a.m.


Possibly not. Maybe my head is just too big.


Tried to have a nap on the couch before and just couldn't go to sleep for whatever reason.


I really have nothing of interest to say.

R.I.P. Kylie.

So tonight, I received the news that Heaven has a new angel - Kylie. Kylie had been ill for some time, but that doesn't make her passing any easier for her family and friends.

R.I.P. Kylie. You will be missed. I will never forget you as the "cool older sister" with a wicked sense of humour.

search no more your wandering star

you've found a place, a hand to hold, in gods loving care

and those of us you've left behind

we'll search our memories and then we'll find

a smile within our tears