Tonight, I can't find happiness in the world.
Tonight, I just don't care.
I have two exams to study for, and three assignments to do, but I just can't be bothered.
I'm so unhappy.
I feel so broken, so fucked up, so sad.
I know he only has as much power as I give him, but it doesn't feel that way tonight.
Tonight it feels like he's taken so much from me, so much that I'll never get back.
I will never be the same person I was before he raped me.
Tonight, it feels like he's taken my education on top of everything else he took from me that night.
And I should fight, I should try to fight this funk, this sadness ...
But I can't.
I just don't care.