Thursday, May 19, 2011

Invisible.

Sometimes I feel so fucking invisible.
Like I could just disappear, and no one would notice. No one would even batt an eye.
 
I want to be somewhere, anywhere but here, because I am so, so desperately unhappy.
 
I feel like shouting, screaming, hitting my arms against a wall ... Anything to make noise, make me feel like I am alive, because at the moment, I feel so disconnected, so numb.
 
I feel like I don't matter in the slightest, I'm not even worth considering or thinking about. Like my sadness doesn't mean a fucking thing, like my pain is insignificant ... Like I am insignificant.
 
I am crying out for help, I want someone to hear me ... But no one is listening.
 
I don't know how much longer I can hold on.

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