Tuesday, January 15, 2008

Welcome to Funk-ville

So I've been in a serious funk.

And I just can't shake it.

I don't know what the hell is wrong with me.

I even got as close as I've ever been on Sunday night to doing something very, very stupid. And I knew it was stupid, but I just can't keep going going like this. Only the thought of not seeing my Little Man, Bug Eyes and Baby Smurf again made me stop.

I've had enough of everything. Of the family shit, which a year later, thanks to my brother, is still going on. I'm tired of being exhausted all the time, and not knowing why. I'm sick of coming home at night and just crying for no reason, or no reason that I can explain.

Yesterday, I slept until 12. Lunch time. I got up, and I was still so, so tired. And I know it's partly because of my back. Nothing seems to be helping it. I've been to the doctor, many times, and I can't get anything that will help. There's always pain. But it shouldn't make me this tired.

So today ... I made a sort-of plan ... Lose some weight, go back to the doctor and the chiropractor, and go from there. Start something long-term, make a plan, follow it through. Start saying to my doctor, "This isn't right. Help me, or I'll go somewhere else."

And ... Hello Zoloft. I'm going back on the Zoloft. It helped last time, and I think it's a good idea.

Anyway ... I'm sick of thinking about myself, so ...

Corey Delaney. Is there anyone who hasn't heard of this 16 year old fuckwit? I hope, that in 10 years time when this kid grows up, when his parents drag out the photos, and the newspaper articles, that this dickhead is humiliated by what he's done, and by how he looks. I think he's an idiot. And oh my god, what's with the way kids dress these days? What is with the big plastic sunglasses and the stupid hats? Am I old for saying this? Oh, how depressing. I'm only 24!

I have found some great new blogs ... Adventures of GuitarGirl RN. Way funny chicky. Ten out of Ten - the writings of a ER Doc. Musings of a Highly Trained Monkey - very cool blog, and very honest ... Definitely someone who calls a spade a spade. There's also Dr Smak, ER RN, Life in the Emergency Department. There are more, but I'll share them later ... I have to say, reading all these blogs has given me a new respect for nurses and doctors. Even though my best friend is a nurse, I've never really thought about her work. Nurses especially put up with a lot of crap, it seems. And who knew that Emergency could be funny as well as dramatic?!

The Pickup Line Encyclopedia ... Ha! Organised by category. Pretty cool website.

This is a rabbit site ... Pretty cool and informative at the same time.

PostSecret has some great secrets up this week ... Go check them out.

It's January, what does that mean? The Australian Open is back again. Tennis will be constantly on my tv for the next couple of weeks, I'll only changing the chanel for the cricket. The next test match (Australia v. India) starts tomorrow, I think.

What else ...

Oh. I met someone. He's a little older than me ... I don't know what it is about me and older guys ... Is it going to go somewhere? I don't know. He's funny, and relaxed, and also kind of frustrates me at times ... *lol* I don't know.

Anyway. That's about it. Sorry for the lack of updates. Maybe that's why I've been in such a bad funk, because I haven't been getting stuff out on here like I usually do. Anyway, I'm gonna work on it. And I'll try to update more often.

Peace out :-)

1 comment:

smale said...

A fair resolution: 1) declare the second test between Australia and India played at Sydney during January 2 – 6, 2008 to be NULL and VOID on legal grounds, 2) cancel the ban on Harbhajan Singh, but punish him along with Andrew Symonds, Michael Clark and Brad Hogg for conduct unbecoming of players of test cricket, and of representatives of their countries.

Explanation: The umpires officiating for the test match (Mark Benson and Steve Bucknor) and the captains (Ricky Ponting and Anil Kumble) of the two playing sides have some legal grounds to enter into an oral agreement about umpiring decisions that AUGMENTS the ICC rules which provide for the umpires’ current decision making capabilities. However, under no circumstances do they have the jurisdiction to enter into an agreement between themselves that SUBVERTS the current rules of the ICC. To make this point clear, consider the incident involving Saurav Ganguly’s dismissal in his second innings. Ganguly (a left-hander) had nicked a ball, and the ball was supposedly caught by Michael Clarke in the slip position. Under normal circumstances, if the fielder (Clarke) was not in the direct line of sight of the umpire (Benson), or if the umpire was not sure if the catch was clean, he would consult the square leg umpire (Bucknor). If the square leg umpire also could not deliver a clear verdict, then the third umpire, who has the benefit of the TV replays, is referred to. This is the procedure for determining the dismissal of the batsman, as provided by the rules of the ICC.

Now, there is definitely the possibility that, when the third umpire is called in, the TV replays also could not determine the verdict clearly. This might be the case, for example, if the TV cameras could not provide the complete information on the position and the movement of the ball and the fielder during the catch. Currently, in international cricket, the batsman is usually given the benefit of the doubt, if the third umpire also could not reach a clear verdict. In this second test match, if the captains and the umpires, in this particular situation (where the third umpire is inconclusive), had agreed that to resolve the ambiguity in a more transparent manner, they would take the word of the fielder who caught the ball (to be conveyed to the umpires through the captain of the fielding side), then they are on a relatively strong legal ground. However, in the case of Ganguly’s dismissal, the umpire, Benson, decided to directly ask the captain of the fielding side, rather than first ask the square leg umpire and the third umpire. Thus his action amounts to subverting the decision process provided by the ICC rules. At this point, perhaps it is worth interjecting that there is no need to ascribe any sinister motives to the umpire. He must have simply gone by the earlier ‘Gentlemen’s agreement’, and possibly, he might not have understood the legal implications of his actions. Also, it is worth explaining the seriousness of this issue with an example here. In a game of cricket, if the umpires and the captains, on their own, could make agreements that subvert the ICC rules, then there is no guarantee that what is played at the venue is cricket. Just imagine, years later, the record books would specify a certain result, but what happened on the field, might be a game of gilli-danda, or football, for that matter! Thus it is very important to understand that the umpires and captains can only augment the decision making procedure provided by the ICC rules for the purpose of transparency, but they can never subvert the ICC rules. If they do, it could not be considered a game of cricket. Thus, the second test match between Australia and India played at Sydney, Australia during January 2 – 6, 2008 is NULL and VOID on legal grounds.

Note that this legal implication is also a happy consequence for all fair-minded followers of the game. Australia would still have the chance to go for their 17 straight test wins if they won the remaining test matches at Perth and Adelaide. Moreover, this would nullify the accusations of cheating that the Australian team has been hearing from many of their own countrymen. On the other hand, for India, they could still win the Border-Gavaskar trophy if they won the remaining two tests. Moreover, for Cricket Australia, BCCI, ICC and the media, the fact that the series is still undecided and kicking, would mean more revenue, and hence a welcome resolution. Thus this is the best outcomes for all parties involved.

(The grounds for my conclusions on the Harbhajan Singh ban, and punishing Singh, Symonds, Clarke, and Hogg will be explained later, in a subsequent article).