I have these thoughts, all these thoughts, swirling around in my head, and I'm too terrified to say them out loud, and I don't even know if I can write them, I can't let them out of my head because then it makes what happened last night real, then it means I have to deal with it, and I don't know if I'm strong enough to do that. I don't know if I'm strong enough to cope with what happened to me last night.
By someone I know. Someone I know hurt me, and scared me, and has changed me forever.
I don't know how to do this. I don't know how to cope with this.