Sunday, November 18, 2012

Tonight ...

I'm in a funk. 
Tonight, I can't find happiness in the world. 
Tonight, I just don't care. 
I have two exams to study for, and three assignments to do, but I just can't be bothered. 
I'm so unhappy. 
I feel so broken, so fucked up, so sad. 

I know he only has as much power as I give him, but it doesn't feel that way tonight. 
Tonight it feels like he's taken so much from me, so much that I'll never get back. 
I will never be the same person I was before he raped me. 
Tonight, it feels like he's taken my education on top of everything else he took from me that night. 
And I should fight, I should try to fight this funk, this sadness ... 
But I can't. 
I just don't care. 

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