Bucks ... I'm sorry you died scared and alone. I'm sorry. I still can't believe all that happened this morning. I know it wasn't my fault, it wasn't anyone's fault, but that doesn't make it any easier. I can't blame anyone for what happened. It doesn't change what happened, no matter how badly I wish it did. I'm sorry, Maybe one day I'll be able to look at the photos of you on my phone, or I'll be able to think of you without bawling my eyes out, but not yet. I miss you heaps, you crazy little bugger.