If you had asked me, even just six weeks ago, if I loved my job, if it made me really happy, I would have said yes.

Of course, I had things I disliked. Sometimes the attitudes of some of the people I work with drive me crazy at times. Of course, I had days where I couldn't wait to leave, or when I didn't even want to go to work.

But most of the time, I felt like the luckiest person in the world. A good job, that was 90% fun.

Now ... Now, I hate it/ HATE it. I feel anxious when I'm going to work. I feel sick with fear while I'm at work.

Will today be the day I lose my job? Will today be the day I do something else that's insignificant and upset the boss?

I hate this. I hate it so very much.